Midnight In Philadelphia by Lifehouse

This is a very personal song, and I wouldn't even put it on here accept that it was tied to a very important time of my life. I was in love, not just high school love, with a guy and wanted to marry him someday. We dated my senior year, and as graduation drew nearer, I was having a hard time. I wanted to go to college and live the life I thought everyone else was living. I was so stressed about graduating and becoming an adult, and being out on my own, I got tunnel vision. I couldn't see this great person in my life, and so I backed off a little. I was still in love with him and wanted to just give it a little time, knowing I'd be back with him soon. Well, he met someone while I was trying to decide what the heck I wanted, makes sense. He didn't come to my graduation, and I really wanted him to because I barely graduated and it was important to me. That night was bittersweet for me. I was so happy to be done with school and wanted to celebrate, but I also knew that it was over, this wonderful, magical time of my life with this guy.  I was right, because a couple of weeks later he told me he was proposing to this girl. He kept pushing me to tell him what I thought and I could barely breathe let alone pour out my soul, but I did anyway. I told him I loved him and that begged him not to leave, but he did. I remember that night perfectly. I was sitting in my room, crying so hard that it didn't make a noise. To this day, I have never cried that hard since. Everyone was asleep and had no idea any of this was happening. I turned on my cd player and put in my Lifehouse CD and played this song. I sat in my closet and went through everything, hating myself for being so scared to be with him, and hating that someone else was going to marry him. That night was the loneliest night, and this song was loneliest song for me. Eventually I turned off the light, got into bed, and wished I could fall asleep.